cel•e•brate
transitive verb
1: to perform (a sacrament or solemn ceremony) publicly and with appropriate rites
2 a: to honor (as a holiday) especially by solemn ceremonies or by refraining from ordinary business b: to mark (as an anniversary) by festivities or other deviation from routine3: to hold up or play up for public notice
intransitive verb
1: to observe a holiday, perform a religious ceremony, or take part in a festival
2: to observe a notable occasion with festivities
Take a moment….
Oh phooey, take a whole day!
And celebrate!
Really bask
In all that is
Blessed,
Good,
Joyous
About your life!
And then tell someone.
Anyone.
Everyone.
What you are
Celebrating!
Spread celebration!
Nina Chong
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That is what I did on Friday. And now that I think about it, yesterday. Really basked in the things that are blessed and good in my life. Like......
hearing the lovely birds singing to each other (and me) as I walked near Crissy Field yesterday. I thanked the two as I walked past where they were sitting in the bush.
the girl working @ Sports Basement yesterday who asked me if she could help me find something (and I could tell she meant it).
same girl found me several pairs of shoes. Come to think of it - forgot to thank her for her help. Thank you through the ether!
the comfy couches in Sports Basement shoe department. My feet took a very long time to figure out which shoes they liked, so I enjoyed the time out lounging.
my easy access via foot or bus to nature be it water (the Bay, the Ocean) or green grass (Washington Square Park, Fort Mason, Crissy Field, Presidio, Golden Gate Park).
the interesting tree shapes as I walked around town. So beautiful I told them.
the roses are blooming. Stop and smell the roses - it's awesome!
all the folks out walking, biking, running, playing, sitting, laying in the sun. happy and enjoying their day. And all the dogs a-playing.
the happy baby behind me on the bus wth this huge grin each time I turned and smiled @ him.
the stiffness in my body telling me I'd sat too long.
the tenderness in my toe joints telling me it's time to walk around AND we walked too much yesterday.
a warm night in San Francisco -- AHHHH!
my yummy veggies from Capay Farm's delivery cut and tossed as a tasty raw salad. With great Katz vinegar and olive oil from Napa Valley. So blessed to have GREAT organic veggies close by!
fresh and clean water to drink whenever I want it from my kitchen tap, with a lot of help from Hetch Hetchy Reservoir and my newly installed Conscious Living water filtration system.
my trigger fingers telling me it's time to stop using my hands and give them a rest.
being alive!
Sunday, April 19, 2009
Thursday, April 9, 2009
5 April to 21 April - WOW!
Sunday, 5 April, I did healing work with my Dancing with Source http://www.dancingwithsource.com/ teacher Ashley. Based on what I recounted to her RE: my Friday consult with Dr. Michael, she checked and while I was congruent with trusting Jesus. And trusting the Holy Spirit. I was not with trusting God. And that included disempowering core beliefs, patterns, programs, etc. around that. We did a lot of processes to heal any & all things related to not trusting God. And Source indicated it would be about 14-1/2 days for all these processes to complete.
As with any protocol I've tried since I got ill way back when, I just notice and see what happens in the days afterward. And it's been pretty interesting. My morning pages capture quite a bit from the nocturnal world. Figure this is the raw material for insights when I read them months/years from now. Journaling and blogging capture the rest as much as I can. I hear Dr. Michael's words "your experience becomes your evidence".
Tuesday (7 April) definitely noticed a shift in my energy and creativity level from the moment I was jolted awake @ 6 AM by a feeling coursing up through my body, from the base of my spine, all the way up and out. Like an orgasm. YES, I remember the dream was sexual. 'Cause I was holding what I thought was a vibrator yet it turned in to this violet colored crystal that was long and rectangular shaped. Regardless, this surge jolted me wide awake. And then I had abdominal cramping and needed to have a bowel movement. And instead of falling back asleep, I tossed and turned wondering what just happened. And is this the kundalini (sp??) energy that Ashley spoke of on Sunday as I asked her to explain what that is. And then I hear voices saying you don't need to be validated by anyone except you. Or approved. Or loved. And then saying copy the cards and make up packages for your women's support group. 6. random. OK?
So for the first time in a long while, I was wide awake @ 7:30 am doing my morning pages. And then copying cards and making up packages for my women's support group for transition. 6 packages with 5 random cards from my card decks: inner child, inner goddess, healing, self-care, power. And then I kept my date with my self - Legion of Honor to see the Lalique, Tiffany, and Faberge special exhibit. And rested several times outside the Legion's cafe before walking a while. The rest was GREATLY appreciated as I noticed my energy level felt restored after each rest. And the conversations with the six women in my support group were inspiring. And afterwards when three of us went for tea.
Now it is 21 April. What a fast, experiential, evidential two weeks it's been. Definitely noticing what topics energize me as I talk about them. Or what lights me up inside when others interact with me. Folks journeying to his/her authentic self (like me). In whatever form that looks like, yet I see it. Sense it. Each doing what each does, one baby step at a time. To witness that. To facilitate another's healing work. What a gift! What an honor! What an edge for me! Thank you God for all that has brought me to this moment! Practice, patience, choices, noticing - all help me hear that deep voice inside that is connected to you! My fragments are re-integrating. And working together now.
WOW! I hear Dr. Micheal "your experience will become your evidence". And Ashley "before it happens physically, it happens energetically."
As with any protocol I've tried since I got ill way back when, I just notice and see what happens in the days afterward. And it's been pretty interesting. My morning pages capture quite a bit from the nocturnal world. Figure this is the raw material for insights when I read them months/years from now. Journaling and blogging capture the rest as much as I can. I hear Dr. Michael's words "your experience becomes your evidence".
Tuesday (7 April) definitely noticed a shift in my energy and creativity level from the moment I was jolted awake @ 6 AM by a feeling coursing up through my body, from the base of my spine, all the way up and out. Like an orgasm. YES, I remember the dream was sexual. 'Cause I was holding what I thought was a vibrator yet it turned in to this violet colored crystal that was long and rectangular shaped. Regardless, this surge jolted me wide awake. And then I had abdominal cramping and needed to have a bowel movement. And instead of falling back asleep, I tossed and turned wondering what just happened. And is this the kundalini (sp??) energy that Ashley spoke of on Sunday as I asked her to explain what that is. And then I hear voices saying you don't need to be validated by anyone except you. Or approved. Or loved. And then saying copy the cards and make up packages for your women's support group. 6. random. OK?
So for the first time in a long while, I was wide awake @ 7:30 am doing my morning pages. And then copying cards and making up packages for my women's support group for transition. 6 packages with 5 random cards from my card decks: inner child, inner goddess, healing, self-care, power. And then I kept my date with my self - Legion of Honor to see the Lalique, Tiffany, and Faberge special exhibit. And rested several times outside the Legion's cafe before walking a while. The rest was GREATLY appreciated as I noticed my energy level felt restored after each rest. And the conversations with the six women in my support group were inspiring. And afterwards when three of us went for tea.
Now it is 21 April. What a fast, experiential, evidential two weeks it's been. Definitely noticing what topics energize me as I talk about them. Or what lights me up inside when others interact with me. Folks journeying to his/her authentic self (like me). In whatever form that looks like, yet I see it. Sense it. Each doing what each does, one baby step at a time. To witness that. To facilitate another's healing work. What a gift! What an honor! What an edge for me! Thank you God for all that has brought me to this moment! Practice, patience, choices, noticing - all help me hear that deep voice inside that is connected to you! My fragments are re-integrating. And working together now.
WOW! I hear Dr. Micheal "your experience will become your evidence". And Ashley "before it happens physically, it happens energetically."
Friday, April 3, 2009
choice and decision point
Friday, 3 April 2009 10:33 PM PDT
Well, what a day! Started off quite early for me as I dragged myself out of bed and then my home to my 9 AM (yes 9 AM) follow-up appointment with Dr. Michael (Cantwell). The integrative MD who had me test for heavy metal toxicity. Boy was I tired by the time I got there. Have been sleeping an average of 9 hours since I got sick way back when AND have gotten used to being tired when I wake up.
AND it was a 45-minute appt that gave me info I needed. For I'd been asking Source for help and guidance on what's blocking me. And I'd been getting signs this week also. We spent the bulk of the 45 minutes discussing where I was spiritually. And how that factored into where I was physically. I like Dr. Michael. He laser-ed into my core with some deep questions.
Bottom-line: I am fighting my-self. Or rather as he called them, my spiritual self and my pyschological self are fighting each other. And each represents the opposite of the other: The former trusts, does not need validation, does not need to please others, does not need to control. My physical & the lab work show autoimmune symptoms which is when the body attacks itself. He went on to say, this fits with my internal conflict & the two selves fighting. You are at a point of committment to one or the other self. Thus I now understand my tooth and gum bothering me since last Tues. Teeth according to Louise Hay's little blue book represents decisions. Until now, I figured it had to do with work path. And given Dr. Michael's comments, definitely at a decision point.
He offered alternatives for approaching this. And advocated chosing the spiritual self, since he felt it would better resolve the physical symptoms. And there are no guarantees. There are resources to make my choices. Struggle on my own. Ask for help all the time. Ask for help when I need it (this honors Spirit). Commit to choosing one self over the other so the conflict and fighting cease. And the balance goes one way. He could help with guided imagery or shamanic work. He figures if I chose the spiritual self, then things will flow. If I chose the psychological self, then my physical symptoms may not resolve.
As I left his office, I told him, he'd provided the information I had asked Source for. And thanked him. He wished me well and gave me a hug.
I knew exactly what I needed to do. I called Ashley to make a appointment to do some work. Time to get help with clearing this conflict and fighting from my system.
And in the meantime, the rest of the day flowed. I could so clearly hear the internal voice as I talked with former colleagues. I had stopped by my former office to give a friend some earrings. And had not intended to go into the office, until my friend invited me. Found myself seeing folks I had not seen since December or longer. And sharing about my morning appt with Dr. Michael. And me. And my Dancing with Source work. One minute it was 10:45 AM, next it was 2:30 PM and I could feel my energy dipping. Time for lunch and a nap. Later when I met up with a friend @ 5:30 PM to go to the DeYoung, I noticed distinctly that my energy level was very good. I felt quite light. And certain aches that had appeared that morning with no apparent cause or reason, were no longer. I hear Dr. Michael's voice: your experience gives you your evidence.
Well, what a day! Started off quite early for me as I dragged myself out of bed and then my home to my 9 AM (yes 9 AM) follow-up appointment with Dr. Michael (Cantwell). The integrative MD who had me test for heavy metal toxicity. Boy was I tired by the time I got there. Have been sleeping an average of 9 hours since I got sick way back when AND have gotten used to being tired when I wake up.
AND it was a 45-minute appt that gave me info I needed. For I'd been asking Source for help and guidance on what's blocking me. And I'd been getting signs this week also. We spent the bulk of the 45 minutes discussing where I was spiritually. And how that factored into where I was physically. I like Dr. Michael. He laser-ed into my core with some deep questions.
Bottom-line: I am fighting my-self. Or rather as he called them, my spiritual self and my pyschological self are fighting each other. And each represents the opposite of the other: The former trusts, does not need validation, does not need to please others, does not need to control. My physical & the lab work show autoimmune symptoms which is when the body attacks itself. He went on to say, this fits with my internal conflict & the two selves fighting. You are at a point of committment to one or the other self. Thus I now understand my tooth and gum bothering me since last Tues. Teeth according to Louise Hay's little blue book represents decisions. Until now, I figured it had to do with work path. And given Dr. Michael's comments, definitely at a decision point.
He offered alternatives for approaching this. And advocated chosing the spiritual self, since he felt it would better resolve the physical symptoms. And there are no guarantees. There are resources to make my choices. Struggle on my own. Ask for help all the time. Ask for help when I need it (this honors Spirit). Commit to choosing one self over the other so the conflict and fighting cease. And the balance goes one way. He could help with guided imagery or shamanic work. He figures if I chose the spiritual self, then things will flow. If I chose the psychological self, then my physical symptoms may not resolve.
As I left his office, I told him, he'd provided the information I had asked Source for. And thanked him. He wished me well and gave me a hug.
I knew exactly what I needed to do. I called Ashley to make a appointment to do some work. Time to get help with clearing this conflict and fighting from my system.
And in the meantime, the rest of the day flowed. I could so clearly hear the internal voice as I talked with former colleagues. I had stopped by my former office to give a friend some earrings. And had not intended to go into the office, until my friend invited me. Found myself seeing folks I had not seen since December or longer. And sharing about my morning appt with Dr. Michael. And me. And my Dancing with Source work. One minute it was 10:45 AM, next it was 2:30 PM and I could feel my energy dipping. Time for lunch and a nap. Later when I met up with a friend @ 5:30 PM to go to the DeYoung, I noticed distinctly that my energy level was very good. I felt quite light. And certain aches that had appeared that morning with no apparent cause or reason, were no longer. I hear Dr. Michael's voice: your experience gives you your evidence.
Wednesday, April 1, 2009
Re-Balancing
Wednesday, 1 April 2009 1:45 PM PDT
Time will tell on my well-being! For today, I feeling pretty dang good!
Rhuematoid arthritis (inflammation of the joints), adrenal fatigue (adrenal glands help the body deal with stress), estrogen dominance (my glands imbalanced in its production of estrogen & progesterone), mercury & lead toxicity (body not releasing toxic metals).
Bottom line (can see this clearer NOW than I did when I was whirling around in the midst of physical body overwhelm back then), my system (and not just my physical body) was out-of-balance regardless of what caused all my physical symptoms. Re-balancing my system will take time for me to do my inner work, lots of self-love, and grace & miracles from Source/God. AND since I believe each of us are holigrams of the world/the planet. The world/the planet/each of us are also in the midst of re-balancing. I ask Source/God to guide each of us towards what works for each of us to re-balance our lives/our system. To cleanse, clear, and heal what prevents each of us from standing in our power and connected to that which is greater than each of us. And to stay the course regardless the length of time it takes.
Time will tell on my well-being! For today, I feeling pretty dang good!
Rhuematoid arthritis (inflammation of the joints), adrenal fatigue (adrenal glands help the body deal with stress), estrogen dominance (my glands imbalanced in its production of estrogen & progesterone), mercury & lead toxicity (body not releasing toxic metals).
Bottom line (can see this clearer NOW than I did when I was whirling around in the midst of physical body overwhelm back then), my system (and not just my physical body) was out-of-balance regardless of what caused all my physical symptoms. Re-balancing my system will take time for me to do my inner work, lots of self-love, and grace & miracles from Source/God. AND since I believe each of us are holigrams of the world/the planet. The world/the planet/each of us are also in the midst of re-balancing. I ask Source/God to guide each of us towards what works for each of us to re-balance our lives/our system. To cleanse, clear, and heal what prevents each of us from standing in our power and connected to that which is greater than each of us. And to stay the course regardless the length of time it takes.
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