thank you Chase William

20 May Wednesday 11 am PDT



Well, been a while since I've written here. Lots of Life happening around me. 26 April birth of my first grand-niece. Total surprise to the mother who realized she was pregnant when she felt the baby's head as she went to pee. Thank God that mother and baby girl are healthy and well. Yes, miracles do happen. 7 May birth of my first grand-nephew. Mother definitely expecting and ready to give birth LOL! 9 May passing of a remarkable woman, the mother of a dear & close friend. All reminders that all we really and truly have is this moment. So embrace it even when we don't like what's happening.


And that said, How Am I? In the midst of a big pile of gratitude and compassion. Considering all the happenings I noted above. And other stuff/drama shared with me since then, am happy to be living in that big pile because it takes the edge off the other stuff that's also in that pile. AND helps me BE with who I am in this minute. ALL of me.

Thank you Chase William (my 13-day old grand-nephew) for reminding me. Spending 10 days under the same roof as Chase William reminded me just what 'in the moment' means. And that I want and need to give myself full permission to be in that moment whatever it looks or feels like. One moment, Chase had a wet, poopy diaper on AND still smiled. Another moment, he had a wet. poopy diaper on AND was yelling @ the top of my lungs. And yet another moment, he had a clean, dry diaper on AND was either yelling or smiling. And once that moment passed, it was gone and replaced with another, and another.

Somewhere along the way, I not only let my moments pass and be replaced with another. I also held onto some moments as if they were present moments. And am thankfully doing what it takes to release them so I can restore that part of being a baby that got hidden along the way.